
Spirit
Spirit You live within me
Spirit You are truth
Spirit to You I connect
Spirit You make me aware
Spirit within and without
Spirit all around
In You I live and have my being
To be in and aware of Spirit
Is to be free
Scraping the surface
Day in and day out
Running
Haste
Noise
Longing for simplicity
To see life
As is
Union
Love
I share a part of a poem I wrote some time ago (minor changes and restructuring before publishing). Maybe the poem is about a time of deconstruction? When we experience what some would call a time of deconstruction the hope is that later there will be a time of new construction. Richard Rohr writes about the universal pattern of order, disorder and reorder (https://cac.org/the-universal-pattern-2020-08-09/). We may have to go through times of suffering, deconstruction and disorder. But when this happens we are also given a chance to give up old ways of living or thinking, in order to experience new growth and freedom in our lives.
EMPTY (part one)
I am empty
At least I feel so
This is a dark time
A time when it is very difficult to see
I feel almost nothing
Just a hollow pain inside
I am saddened
By my lack of love for self and others
I feel empty
For how long have I been emptied
Hardly any joy
I can not force it any more
Will I go crazy
Or will I become free
I don’t know now
Only that there is a deep hollow sorrow
I can not necessarily spiritualize what I am going through
But I will remind myself
That Jesus had to drink the cup he feared
On the cross he also felt completely lost
And away from his Father’s love
I do not know
But I want to trust
Rather than giving up on life
I give up walking in my own strength
Without feeling anything
I let go of my answers and ideas
Because now I have none
Longing for Westworld
My true home
Where my source is
Longing for The River within
To flow freely
True life
Longing for The Divine
To be the beloved
In Love’s embrace
A need for solitude
Aloneness with the One
Soul longing for union
Thirsting for Life Divine
The River within
I guess I have let her carry my loneliness all this time
Now she has been taken ill and hardly remembers herself and me
Crying and a lot of tears
I have to carry my own loneliness now
I have to own it myself
Part of being human is also the experience of loneliness
A longing for true union with man and God
Now I carry this loneliness of mine
I have taken it back from her
This is not her burden anymore
Maybe I am also better at carrying my own burden now
Thank you for carrying it for so long
For making life bearable also in the darkest of times
Now I will continue this journey through loneliness on my own
Embracing my loneliness
My longing for union
Sometimes I will be carrying her
Truth is revealed in silence
Truth is received in silence
Truth lives in the silence within
Truth will find its way when you listen
Truth asks you to be true to yourself
Truth will be revealed when needed
Truth is revealed in silence
Truth is to be trusted and received
Truth helps you to let go of what is not true
Truth eventually creates freedom
Truth grows from within
Truth is revealed in silence
Silent Truth
You
You touch me deeply
You are running through my veins
and heart
You burn within me
You my Source
My life
My all
In your mind you think yourself alone
You think you are alone
You’re thinking all love is gone
You’re restless in your aloneness
Nevertheless
What your longing for is not for some person to give
Rather it is for you to surrender and receive
It is there even when you think yourself alone
What you think is gone
Is for your heart to see