Sadness within
Takes you low
Irritation from small things
What is hiding deep below the surface
Sorrow within
Takes you low
Feelings of uncertainty
What is hiding deep below the surface
Despair within
Takes you low
A hunger for eyes to have seen
What was barely beneath the surface
The longing pains me. Is it new life growing or a desire for wholeness? I thirst for His love and grace to color my life and surroundings. Fill my empty, bottomless cup. I pray and yearn, day and night. Come, heal my inner man.
Let my eyes dwell on Your goodness. I long for your touch, to drink your lifegiving water. It is painful, this hunger, it truly is. May Your Spirit quench my thirst.
Your Life within me, is my strength forever and ever. Your Love upholds me and lifts my soul. Your Grace heals my inner man and restores my broken heart. In You I find truth and rest for my soul.
Keep me Lord, surround me, embrace me in my sorrow and woundedness. Help me to be a giver of what You have given. Help me drink the cup and take the steps You ask of me. You want the whole world to know, The Christ that moves and upholds.
Christ be my life, Christ be my all. Let me see with Your eyes, each created thing and being, yes, the whole of Your creation. When everything else is burned away, be You still, the Flame burning in and embracing my heart.
Longing for true life
in relation to real people
Broken friendships and loss
Especially difficult
in times like these
Longing to truly give to others
what my heart has deeply received
Letting it rest
Especially difficult
in times like these
From longing to looking ahead
to days of new paths
Hungering for brighter days
Especially easy
in times like these
Bluebells ringing in the morning sun
The day passing slowly
The evening coming so deep and blue
Everything said that can be said
The Earth has nourished you for a long time
Stars mirrored in the sea
Now say goodbye, to everything you know
Now it is you, who are dying
The boat is on the riverbank
The ferryman is ready
Look back no more
The Light is all you have
This poem was written by a very good, mystic friend, Dag Knapstad 🙂 Posted with the poet’s permission.
Norwegian original:
Siste sang
Blåklokker ringer i morgensol
Dagen drar langsomt forbi
Kvelden den kommer så dyp og blå
Alt er nå sagt som kan sies
Jorden har næret deg lenge nå
Stjernene speilet i sjø
Ta nå farvel med alt du vet
Nå er det du som skal dø
Båten den ligger ved elvens bredd
Ferjemannen er klar
Se deg ikke tilbake mer
Lyset er alt du har
Some say the cup feels half empty
Others say it feels half full
The contemplative heart knows the cup is full
Yes, even overflowing
I am empty
At least I feel so
This is a dark time
A time when it is very difficult to see
I feel almost nothing
Just a hollow pain inside
I am saddened
By my lack of love for self and others
I feel empty
For how long have I been emptied
Hardly any joy
I can not force it any more
Will I go crazy
Or will I become free
I don’t know now
Only that there is a deep hollow sorrow
I can not necessarily spiritualize what I am going through
But I will remind myself
That Jesus had to drink the cup he feared
On the cross he also felt completely lost
And away from his Father’s love
I do not know
But I want to trust
Rather than giving up on life
I give up walking in my own strength
Without feeling anything
I let go of my answers and ideas
Because now I have none
There is a Source
I call it The Great Within
It gives life and wisdom
It can be like
A Great Storm or
A Still Small Voice
This is the Great Within
It manifests in the silence of each moment
Mother
Your joy
Your hope
Your love
Were there
So many times
Mother
You are still here
But also not
Different
Mother
I can still see your joy
Hope
And love
Mother
I can also see in you what you once saw in me
Fear
Insecurity
Pain
Mother
Sweet bitterness
Sweet sadness
Pain but
Memories sweet
Still love
Always
Christ is My Sheperd
The Sheperd upholding my life
The One carrying me through it all
It is in the One I trust in everything and everyone
Christ for me
Christ for you
Christ for all
The Universal Christ
All in all
Spirit
Spirit You live within me
Spirit You are truth
Spirit to You I connect
Spirit You make me aware
Spirit within and without
Spirit all around
In You I live and have my being
To be in and aware of Spirit
Is to be free
