Sadness

Turning

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Another threshold
Leaving this image
Whatever is to come
You keep walking,
this pathless walk

Tiring show,
leaving a stage,
no more playing this way
Darkened lights,
still within they shine

Stepping down
Stepping back
Sitting down behind it all
An urgent yearning,
another dark burning

No other option
Want to live
Want to give
This again you leave
for another widening circle

Heart beat slows
Blindness grows
Yet in new rest you trust
Only this you must
Scales soon breaking

Light so bright revealed,
through ground cracking
A time for the thirsty soul
Diving all in,
in light air flying, trusting

You return again, all aflame now

Undone

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I used to know everything
Now I don’t know any thing
I used to brag about this and that,
now I’m done with the fat clown

Until this day,
I’ve been lost in a darkness
I dared not admit

I wanted to live in a blaze of glory —
now I prefer the silence,
the creation,
through attentive listening

Unconvinced now of my rightness,
still thirsting for truth —
is what I know

Photo: Tove Hubak Fleischer

Got som help from ChatGPT just to structure the poem into stanzas and for some punctuation

Hope

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Celebrate the life we are living
Celebrate the light we are seeing
Celebrate hope in the land
Celebrate every woman, every man
Celebrate mankind

Grieve the pain we are receiving
Grieve the killing of innocents
Grieve the fearful, power-hungry leaders
Grieve the hate and violence around
Grieve mankind

We need to look reality into its eyes
There is celebration, yet also grieving
No use in shutting your eyes
The pain cuts deep like deepest waters
So hope may rise like the morning sun

So, walk with the joyful
Stay, with the mourning ones
Embrace, the fatherless children
Forgive, the men who lost their way

We celebrate again, the gift of life
We grieve the terror and tragedy
We forgive ourselves for our darkness
Love will endure
Love is our hope

Please,
open your heart

Clown

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A roar of rage within yourself
Explodes and bursts forth like a volcano
All headless and out of control
Takes its toll on others and yourself
All so out of proportions
A shameful thing it is
Breaks you down
It hurts to embrace the clown

This clown is a life you have known
In trying to find love and joy,
you have played this joker
Becoming a character offered mocking
In hiding this great pain within,
you had been cheated of early joy in life

Now when others cheat you of your right,
your anger great and wild, shows its might
Smaller things may get it going,
but now you see it in your knowing
This clown, was sad, longing for love
It drove you far and gone
Finally, you are about to sing a new song

Gifted with knowledge of this anger’s might,
it will help you escape its blow,
when left without your right
Now turn the angry burning upside down and crash it onto the stone
In the cracking of this clown let newfound joy rise from bone

Klang

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Eg ynskjer eigentleg å vere aleine no
Aleine i mitt eige tempel
Det blei ikkje kyrkjegong på meg
Her kan eg syngje den songen eg sjølv vil

Det spring ut frå mitt eige indre
Ulike klangar blandar seg saman
No er det særleg ein klang av sakn og sorg
Ei smerteleg vise ynskjer å bli bore fram

Eg har ei redsle
Redsla er gamal
Nett like gamal som meg,
er redsla for denne songen

Kva om eg torde å blande inn denne klangen
La denne smertelege visa syngjast ut
Kva ville bli att,
av meg

Der ute med dei andre
Må eg så kunne finne ein plass
Og vere open og ærleg
Utan å krevje eller kravstyrd

Men no ynskjer eg i alle fall å vere aleine
Ein smerteleg solo
Det veltar i meg
No er eg klar

Note: This poem was written in Norwegian nynorsk

Hold it

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Hold it, my friend
Be your own good friend now
Hold it, please
Stay with it and hold it, within
I know it is painful
I know your despair
You need to hold it right now and here
Drink the cup, my friend
Drink, and
drink again

Just now, rest assured
You need to feel lost
before you find you are found

So hold it now
Again, drink
Let it fill you all up
I know you want wine
but the drink is vinegar
Yet, I plead you, to open up
to see, to feel and also be
molded by it
You must know your pain and
even feel lost, my friend
Only then you can know
that in this,
you are found

Open My Valves

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Going through some things in the storage
from long gone days
Emotions were stirring, tears filled my eyes
That was when I realized

I am just like this beautiful horn I used to play
It was called euphonium
And had a sound of wonder
I must say

After some time of playing
the horn filled up with spit
I had to open all the valves and blow out
the waste stuck in it

Then the horn was ready to be played
Again, beautiful music could be made
The sound was now so strong and so clear
Some people even thought it was rare

Going through some old things that day
Made me realize I am also this way
I need to open my valves to feel 
and clear out my grief

When I have remembered the joy and
all tears have been cried
I have both embraced my past and
opened myself fully for the ever deeper
love in life

Letter of Pain

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I am writing down this letter of pain
Asking myself, -what is there to gain
My God, my God I am feeling alone and lost
The cup is large and it is of great cost

Some people say, -Jesus took your pain
On the cross the sin of the world was lain
Yet, to me this is so very real
This terrible agony I now feel

Was it not God that gave me this gift to feel
Maybe so that I through that could heal
Is Christ on the cross there with me
Sharing the experience of this so terribly

As I am writing this letter of pain
And in the dark it is too dark to see
Another thought crosses my mind:
The cross I bear is part of Thine

All is well

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When I want to see you
I open the door to my heart
Then you are there, just like you once were
All is well

You are so happy to see me
We share heartfelt words
Exchange warm gazes
All is well

Later we are swimming in the water
Our tears fills the Lake of Hearts
We wash ourselves clean
All is well

In the evening you take me to the side
You turn your gaze towards me
Tilt you head lightly and whisper
-All is well

When you’ll once leave Earth
We can always meet there again
In the Garden and Lake of Hearts
All will be well

 

ALT ER BRA

Når jeg vil besøke deg
Åpner jeg døren til mitt hjerte
Så er du der, som du en gang var
Alt er bra

Du er så glad for å se meg
Vi deler gode ord
Veksler varme blikk
Alt er bra

Senere bader vi i vannet
Våre tårer fyller hjertets innsjø
Vi vasker oss rene
Alt er bra

På kvelden tar du meg til side
Du vender blikket mot meg
Skrår lett ditt hodet og visker
-Alt er bra

Når du en gang jorden forlater
Kan vi alltid møtes der igjen
I hjertets hage og i dets vann
Alt blir bra